This poem is the first in my recently published poetry collection.

i’m an expert at many things
like widened eyes
and crooked smiles
and silent conversations
like scolding tongues
and phrases of disapproval
lips pursed in opposition
and stiffening at your touch

i’m an expert at many things
like planning out my days
and not living them
i make promises that go unfulfilled
i hope without action
give without receiving

i’m an expert at so many things
too many to count
and yet i fail at being what i need
and loving myself